This blog entry is so hard for me.
I got back from England last night after spending the week with what I consider “my other family”.
When I was 17, I worked as a nanny for the Springbett family who had 3 children. Zoe 6, Josie 5 and Jack- maybe 10 months old. They quickly became like family. Zoe and Josie were precocious little monsters and I loved them completely; and Jack was just a sweetheart. I stayed with the family until I was 21 or 22. We have kept in close contact and I stayed with them or visited them whenever I returned to England.
Josie was diagnosed with cancer in 2007. She endured not just chemo, but several surgeries, courses of radiotherapy, endless scans, endless appointments, devices implanted, head shaves, etc so when I saw her latest blog entry I wasn’t surprised, but I was devastated!
Josie’s last blog entry- August 12th 2010
Hello everyone,
It's just going to be a short update today as I'm feeling a bit lost for words. I did however want everyone to know that I've decided to end treatment. I've had the feeling for a while that the chemo is running out of steam and I don't see the point of weakening my body with something that the cancer is now hardened to. I think I had made my decision a while back, but I don't like giving up and it's hard to tell your loved ones that you have.
I got a text from Zoe on Saturday at 1:30pm saying that Josie was struggling and only had hours left.
At 2pm I booked a flight and at 3pm I was in the airport on my way to say Goodbye.
I landed at 11am and drove straight to the hospital. I was 2 minutes too late. She was gone...
So a light went out, and England will never quite be the same without my little pixie.
Sleep well Josie, you are loved xx
